Just Musing

With a skittering of snow over the low ground, and rather more higher up it was a gorgeous start to the day. The sun shone as I drove up to the pastures to carry on cutting those invasive rushes. I know, shouldn't really be trundling around on the grass in the cold weather but if we get a snowy winter this job won't get done before we have to stop again for those ungrateful corncrakes. So, it's crack on, there's about 200 acres to top so it needs done.

With the topper merrily puffing out an amusing cloud of powdered snow, the tractor cab heater blasting and Jethro Tull on the iPod all was well with the world. Then, as I do, I got to thinking. Here I was, working the very ground that some of the songs I was listening to were about. Ian Anderson, head honcho of Jethro Tull used to own the estate and many of the songs feature landmarks or images found here. From the top of the field I could see his former house, the salmon hatchery he set up and the old fort at Dun Ringill. It all seemed rather, well, right. It's a shame he's not here anymore, I think he was a force to the good.

This of course brought me round to thinking about Highland estates in general and the way they are managed. To cut a long story short, the way I see it is this: The Highland estate is best managed by a wealthy and committed sporting family. They have the money to spend on infrastructure, staffing and local services. They truly love their estates and this is reflected in the amount of wildlife one sees and the care taken of it as a whole.

Sometimes

Sometimes I think it's all in my head. Sometimes I think I imagine this pain, the pain in my hands and my hips, my back and my knees but then along comes a day like today and I know it's real. A day such as this when I've taken my full complement of pain killers and cannot wait for my little blue 'oblivion' pill at bed time. A day when the bath could not be hot enough or long enough to get the cold from my bones or the knots from my muscles. A day when working in the wet and the cold seemed to go on forever, every log I picked up weighed more than the last one and every small knock felt like being hit with a hammer. No, I know it's real.

Positive Things

I've changed doctors. Should have done it a long time ago. She listened, she thought creatively, she gave me time, she asked me the right questions. She has taken action, bloods next week, huge raft of tests. Then meetings with specialists dependent on the results. She gave me a super blue pill to take at night. I slept like a log. Like I haven't slept for years. She has also given me homework, things to make me look at what's going on in my life. At last, I feel I'm making progress.

Something from a few years ago...

I asked my neighbour's son ‘so, have you been to the top?’ indicating the hill behind our houses.

‘Yeah’ he answered with all the certainty of a 14 year old, ‘but there was nothing up there’. I didn't answer, the conversation not worth pursuing.

The first few hundred feet are heart breaking, lung stretching toil. Your mind can think of little but the heave of your chest and flexing of your ankles…and then it becomes a little steeper. The grass gives way to a jumble of rocks interspersed with tortured, stunted birch trees. Small streams cut through, making steps in the rock, although steep, the going here is slightly easier, just watch for the loose rocks, their coating of algae making them all the more treacherous.

With surprising suddenness you are though and on to a more level patch, although level is a relative term up here. A small flat area with a patch of dead bracken, red gold in the early light provides a place to take a breather. The dog however is still keen so you press on. As you turn a woodcock flushes from beneath your feet, the only sound the sharp flit of its wings as it falls over the edge of the hill into the safety of the birches. Before long another ridge rears before you, not so steep but covered in rank, knee deep heather and tussocks of moor grass. From a distance the high lifting gait you adopt must appear comical, but there is no one to see you. Another hundred feet sees you to the top of this bank, as soon as you hit the crest, there is the heartbreaking sight of yet another ridge blocking your way. This one is unassailable without some climbing, not being in the mood for this you stroll along the foot of the ridge until it starts to comes down to meet you. Here at the foot of the ridge the vegetation is more sparse, huge rocks emerge like the backs of fossilised whales, complete with a crusting of lichen barnacles.

Some call this landscape colourless; to you it’s a blazing cacophony of shades and hues. Every tone of brown, grey, green, yellow and red is here. From a lichen so improbably lime green to a pure white lump of quartz. From the black, black peaty pools to the violet hues of the moor grass in the distance…and that’s before the sun has come out to gild the tops of the nearby mountains with a rich, regal orange glow.

You are nearing the place where the ridge has dropped to meet your level, you can take a step up and then walk back along the top, parallel to the path you just walked but higher. Another five minutes walk up the steady incline of this hogs-back ridge and you come to a perfect view point. You can see most of the loch from here, all the way to the open sea some five miles away to the south. A creel boat is carving the water, getting out to his grounds before the weather turns. Look north and you may see the post bus in the distance making its way around the head of the loch just a small red smudge against the huge conical hills beyond the road. Look to the west and try not to feel daunted by the sheer cliffs rising behind you, their outcrops of icicles looking like something form another world. Above the cliffs you can just see the peaks of the mountains beyond, a dusting of snow contrasting sharply with the elephant grey of the ancient weathered rock.

As you stand and stare an odd ‘cronk’ sounds from the distance, a pair of ravens are dancing, the sky their ballroom. Their intricate moves cement the bonds of the pair, another clutch of eggs will follow come the longer days. A shape moves into view beyond them, massive, dwarfing the ravens. A little shiver of anticipation runs through you. Is it a golden? No. The wing shape is not quite right, the neck too short, the build too massive. Yes! It is! Your first Sea Eagle. You watch its perfect mastery of the air for fully five minutes until it dwindles to speck in the distance. Just that sighting makes it worth the climb.

The dog is becoming impatient so you walk on, day dreaming a little, perhaps about the ancient Gaels whose land this was, perhaps saying a quiet word of greeting as you pass a small circle of jumbled stones, all that remains of one of their hill shelters. You cannot help but marvel at their hardiness, no Goretex or fleece then, no central heating or hot water. A commotion ahead stops you dead…a red deer hind with last years calf at foot has been dosing behind a rock. They gallop off, hooves beating a tattoo on the peaty soil, pausing to look back before they cross a ridge and vanish into the vastness of the hill. The dog stays at heel, he knows not to chase them.

Coffee is calling so you turn for home, descending quickly, much more quickly than the walk up. As you go down, the sounds of the sea begin to reach you, half a dozen oystercatchers bicker over ownership of a small section of beach, an outboard motor whirrs. The ground becomes a little less steep, less heathery. You think back to the autumn when this area was covered with the perfect white flowers of grass of parnasus. Each a beautiful little wedding bell.

The dog noses a wisp of snipe into the air as we pass the rushy field, their sharp ‘scaarp’ giving them away.

You've only been out for half an hour but you feel some justification in scoffing down that last blackcurrant muffin when you get back into the warmth of the kitchen.

No, there is nothing up there, at least, nothing that matters to that adolescent boy. But for you, there is a world up there.

Bored

Bored, bored with feeling ill all the time. Bored with the crippling headaches, fed up with the shooting pains in my limbs, fed up with constant neck pain, tired of feeling vague, tired of being tired, down about feeling down, cheesed off with losing grip in my hands, fed up with the lack of mobility in my joints, fed up with forgetting, tired of not sleeping, hacked off about not being able to do a full day's work, bored with not be able to walk far. Tired of feeling ill.

Sorry about that.

My good friend EC Hunter has published his first book: Windigo

The Gun Thing

I won't deny it, I like to shoot and I like a nice gun or rifle. I like turning a clay target into a puff of dust, I like punching tiny holes in pieces of paper at unfeasibly long distances. These are things I can do, I can't hit a golf puck and I don't know one end of cricket racquet from the other. I love the engineering and accuracy of a modern sporting rifle, I could stare for hours at the craftsmanship of a hand made English gun, they can truly be works of art. I make no apologies for this. People make no apologies for loving cars or motorcycles, riding horses or flying down a mountain on skis, indeed why should they? If one is careful and considerate, trained and educated problems will be minimised. Not entirely without risk, obviously, when we take on life on this planet, risks are attached and have, in some measure, to be accepted. It's about attitude.

Where am I going with this? No doubt you will have seen on the news that yet another mass shooting has taken place in the USA. Tragic, pointless and grim. I can't pretend to know why these things happen but one thing I am certain of is that there is no need for civilians to own assault weapons. Yes, I know that mass killings could take place with a pair of hand crafted Holland and Hollands...but have they, ever? No. I doubt it. I am certain that owning these types of weapon can only breed a certain attitude, after all, what are they made for. Killing people, that is all, that is what they are made for. There can be no argument that they have a use in hunting, none at all. Even I, a fairly low-level stalker these days probably shoot more deer in a season than the average American hunter does in a lifetime (the irony being that their wildlife laws are far stricter than their gun laws in many cases) and I do it very well with a bolt-action sporting rifle. What about home defense? Surely assault weapons have a place there? No, if you must have a weapon for home defence then any shotgun will do the job. What else? Well, I have seen folks on the TV running about with them playing at soldiers. If you want to do that JOIN THE ARMY. I really can't think of a valid reason for owning one and if I were a citizen of the USA I would not want 'my right to bear arms' to be responsible for the death of even a single child. Come on shooters of America, sort yourselves out, you have a great country and incredible opportunities. With rights come responsibilities.

A Year On

I was just reading a post I made a little over a year ago. In it I mentioned my hands were becoming a concern following my wrestle with 'suspected' Lyme disease (it's only the doctor who says suspected, I don't!). Without doubt they are worse, so are my hips, knees, back, neck and shoulders. The vagueness hasn't got too much better, nor the lethargy, nor the headaches. I don't write this as a 'poor me' but merely to warn. We are almost at the end of the tick season now but spring will see the little beggars emerging again ready to offload their burdens into YOU. Be aware, know the symptoms, know how to remove ticks properly and know when to take yourself to your doctor.

What next? Well, I could go and get more antibiotics but I'm not inclined to. I still don't have a proper diagnosis. His answer was 'yes, it's most likely Lyme'. Multitudes of blood tests have proved inconclusive but as anybody who's read anything about it knows, the tests aren't infallible. One thing is for certain. I have arthritis and it's unpleasant and I don't really know what to do next. Thank heavens for Naproxen and free prescriptions.

There's a decidedly autumnal feel out there this morning. The midge population is dropping away (heaves sigh of relief), birch seeds are fluttering down like snowflakes and the bracken is turning.

Talking of bracken a couple of weeks ago the helicopter was here to take advantage of the 'Asulox Window'. Oh dear, what a palava. Half the population are up in arms about their water supply/vegetables/bees/washing/heaven knows what. The other half would like to see a little less bracken. Well, I fall into the less bracken category without doubt. Damned invasive, tick harbouring plant that it is. But what about the others? Well, I grew up on an arable farm and sprays hold no terror for me but I suppose these folks who grew up in towns and have heard nothing good about chemicals perhaps needed a bit of hand-holding before the helicopter descended. A little bit of prior information might have gone a long way to help acceptance. I'd better say no more.

What about the wider world? I sit here in a very small corner of it and watch as world unravels before me. I don't quite know why but I get the feeling that our wee planet is in greater danger now than it has been for many years. Perhaps ever. It seems clear to me that the Syrian problem is a front for Obama and Putin to orchestrate another World War. Why? Easy. Just read 1984. We should listen to Orwell. This is about money, it's about control, it's about vested interests.

Then there's Fukushima. It's pouring radioactive waste into the Pacific. Already fish are being caught off the West coast of America which are hemorrhaging from their eyes. This is not good. This is doubleplusungood.

So there we have it, a depressing little start to a sunny Sunday morning. Sorry about that.

The Biggest Issue

This is not going to be popular but then I’ve never worried much about being popular. I’m sure others are saying this too but this is my take.

All the problems of this planet are caused by over population. Not of rats or Japanese knotweed. Not of cockroaches or termites. Of HUMANS. Various estimates put the maximum population that this poor planet can accommodate at between 1.5 and 4bn. We are well over that now and growth is unfettered and exponential.

We see a starving child on the TV and our hearts go out. The personal tragedy is heart rending. We phone up and pledge money and maybe save that child. For what? To salve our own conscience? Certainly partially. Is there actually such a thing as true altruism? Doubtful. But that is a separate issue.

Back to that starving child, see the flies crawling round its mouth, its distended belly, crusted eyes and skeletal limbs. We save that child with a dribble of gruel and a shot of vitamins. Project forward twenty years, perhaps that child has fathered another two, three, four children it can’t support, perhaps another drought or famine or war has occurred in the area. Never mind, the ‘altruists’ step in again and off we go for another round.

Meanwhile in a prosperous western country every year the older generation just gets, well, older. Advances in medicine and care keep people alive much longer than their three score years and ten. There are fewer still births, prosperity encourages people into large families, social support encourages people into large families. People who should die from diseases don’t.

Even modern wars don’t encourage wholesale killing like wars of old.

But why is this important? Why should we care? Every human on the planet creates more demands on our finite resources, creates more waste and leaves less room for nature's systems to function. One day those systems will cease to function and the Old Testament will read like a holiday brochure.

So there we have it, unfettered breeding, more people living longer and nature’s traditional culling methods being over-ridden at every turn. So what is the solution? Can anything actually be done? As far as I can see the only thing we can hope for is personal responsibility. Replace yourself and nothing more. But will this happen? No, of course not. Lack of comprehension of our situation, lack of education, lack of giving a damn.

Our time on this planet is running out.

The Passing of Childhood

I only went in to turn and vacuum the mattress. It seemed like a useful thing to do during my enforced holiday from the world of woodlands. On every available surface in the room was the ephemera of childhood. Tractors of every make, size and colour, implements to match. Books, magazines, drawings. The games, both favourite and unplayed were piled on shelves. Keepsakes and treasures, dust covered and seemingly forgotten. The soft toys still piled on the bed looked forlorn and lonely. Over this was spread the occasional newer item. A climbing magazine, a pair of hiking socks, the tag from his new tent. A stick of deodorant, a photograph of a bunch of friends at school, all wearing ties and smart jackets. A single shin pad, a pack of new mackerel lures and a used iTunes card lay on the carpet.

I sat down on the bed and looked at the scene, feeling despair at the passing of a childhood, a sadness at this small death. As I looked though, something changed in me. He was my little boy and always will be, now he’s my big boy and he’ll always be that too. We must embrace the change we see in our children, we must help and guide them on their next steps on the journey to adulthood, just as we did with those first faltering steps all those years ago. Now as I look I see hope for the future, bright, engaged, intelligent hope.

He’ll be home from school in just a few short weeks, his first year complete and then the page will turn, the next chapter will start and we will walk into it together.

My good friend Edward Hunter has published his first eBook, find out more at www.echunter.com

The Things I Love - A self-centred post brought on by a quad ride along a deserted beach.

The Things I Love are many, here are a few of them. Waking on a sunny morning, birds or water the only sounds. Returning home after a cold day to find the kitchen full of the smells of baking. Knowing that my house is heated solely through the sweat of my brow. Taking a high pigeon on a pheasant drive. Whiffling geese. The smell of the steam as your quad plunges through a deep puddle. A well ploughed field. A cock grouse standing sentinel.  The Field hitting the mat. Pheasants going up to roost. That frosty morning when you hear the first stags roaring. Tweed. That painful burst of saliva at the first mouthful of a really good steak. Vanilla. The first Pimms of the Summer – and all the rest. The smell of a Christmassy house. Goldfinches. Salt on your lips on a windy day by the sea. Leather seats. Tea rooms with cake stands. Cake. The carrots from a beef stew. Bacon. Aston Martins. The cry of a swift – truly the bird. The warmth coming through your jacket when your dog presses up close on a cold morning flight. Finding something long thought lost that brings a memory of someone long departed.

Old Land Rovers. Books, any and all. Maps and aerial views. Great coffee. Teak decks. The pinking sounds as a log burner heats up. The tapping of halyards against masts. Black grouse. The beaters getting closer. Driving on deserted roads in heavy snow. Roger McPhail paintings. Balsamic vinegar. The smell of a greenhouse full of tomatoes. Cows, the grassy smell, the warmth, the bulk. Muck spreading. A pile of sleeping pigs. Collective nouns. The purple colour of ash buds as they open. When your dogs sits with its’ chin on your knee. Cheese – Stilton, Brie de Meaux  and a Cheddar that makes your tongue go numb, all sadly a thing of the past for me. Wild weather. Quality kit – be it boots or gloves, coats or hats. Fancy gin. A big pile of logs, seasoned and ready to burn. A tricky descent, well executed. Views.  Music that reaches into my soul. The sight of a picker up surrounded by dogs walking along a ride. Realising that you’ve finished. Watching a questing spaniel. Lapsing into what amounts to a trance when words and ideas fill your head. The Sunday Times Rich List. A hot bath in an old enamel bath that’s worn a bit rough and has verdigris on the taps. Lapsang Souchong.

The sculptures of Simon Gudgeon. Eating from Wedgwood plates.  Oak floors. Flight ponds. A properly run Highland estate. Woodlands. A roe buck in his new summer pelage. Bluebells under birches. Hares. Getting a vehicle where many would think impossible. Beautiful guns. A flawlessly blue sky. The calls of grouse. The sound of a thousand pinkfeet in the air. Gorgeous boats, big or small, power or sail. The House of Bruar, but not their coffee. Tim Hortons doughnuts. The feeling of hot sun. Mountains. Not being part of the herd. Tapirs. Woodcock chicks. The first sighting of the new crop of deer calves. Good binoculars. The sound of widgeon. Roost shooting pigeons with friends. Setting off on holiday in the wee small hours. Sausage roll time on a shoot day. Not having to wear glasses anymore. A good axe. Sitting, watching and waiting. Walking on the high tops, looking for ptarmigan. Having no pressure of time. Freedom to act and think as I please. Life.

I have a pretty idyllic life and one that I suspect many people would give their eye teeth for. One of the most pleasant things I do in my life is look after a very remote fishing lodge (www.camasunarie.co.uk). It's a steep and rocky quad ride to get there and on a nice day the views, I think, rival anything in Europe. The house sits in a bay which nestles between Bla Bheinn and the Cuillin. It's spectacular but it's very location is part of a problem. To cut a long story short about 99% of the planet's rubbish seems to wash up there. Last year we took around 7 tonnes of plastic off, this year will be much the same. It's remote, expensive and bloody hard work.

Much of it is the detritus of fishing - the real price of fish as I call it. However, other categories of waste are represented - household, industrial, yachting...and fieldsports.

What? I hear you cry. Yes, there is always a profusion of empty cartridge cases washed up, not to mention plastic wads. In my opinion there is no need for any of it and it makes me angry, but what makes my blood boil is the cartridge cases, I know they are comparatively small but be sure, everyone who sees one will sway a little towards anti-ism. There is no need for it. OK, the odd one get's dropped, I understand that, but there are obviously still people around who think it is acceptable to toss their empties into the burn or the sea but this is completely UNACCEPTABLE. So folks, if you see anyone dropping their cases or you yourself are tempted....please, don't be a tosser.

Something I wrote a few years ago:

It had been quite a struggle for my friends to persuade me to go. I had hummed and harred for months. Could I afford it? Had I the time? But most importantly, did I really want to kill a black bear?

Eventually, after a flurry of emails and phone calls it was decided and a couple of weeks later I was threading my way from North West Scotland to Gatwick, collecting one of my companions on the way. Needless to say, getting a rifle through Gatwick was a farce of epic proportions. Contrasting sharply with Halifax, Nova Scotia at the other end. Canadian customs officers were polite, efficient, smart and intelligent, the British ones had learned to stand upright. We regained my friends rifle with a minimum off fuss and a cheery ‘have fun in the woods guys’. (Yes, I know!)

It was a long drive in our hired Jeep and we arrived very late at out hosts house. They had waited up and had laid on a hot meal for us. This was to be a recurrent theme – the sheer friendliness and hospitality of the Canadians amazed and delighted us. Then it was up to our bunks. We were billeted above the tack room and next to the hay barn. The evocative fragrances of horse, leather and hay lulled us to sleep quickly.

The morning saw us back in the Jeep heading down to the Department of Natural Resources for our bear permits. The operation was slick and the application process simple. The staff in the office couldn’t have been more helpful. Then back to base for another 6000 calories and the inevitable steeped tea. The Canadians must be the only people who drink more tea than the Brits. The only difference being they leave it to brew on the heat all day!

After lunch it was rifle time. We headed out in the Jeep to find a suitable spot for a bit of familiarisation. Our guide set out a cardboard box with a few dots on it at 20 yards. Wait a minute, 20 yards? Yes, this was going to be close in stuff. Next he produced a varicose selection of weapons. One of my pals had brought his own Remmy 7 in 308 but for the other two of us there was a combination gun – 12g over 7x57, the Guides new pride and joy 7mm Rem Mag Browning and a venerable old Winchester lever gun in 32 Win Sp. I immediately knew I had to choose the Winchester. So small and neat, it looked like a toy. It was then I noticed the scope…or rather the absence of one. OK. It was iron sights for me. I picked up the little rifle and felt at home with it immediately, I stoked it up with a few cartridges which looked about the same vintage as the rifle and proceed to put all of them in the little black dot. I was amazed. It was a real cutey to shoot.

As the September day began to cool it was time to kit up. Earlier we had hung our hunting clothes on the line to blow through and remove a bit of scent. Our guide handed out rubber boots as he maintained our leather ones would allow too much scent through. I got lucky and got a pair of enormous Canadian winter boots…perfect on a day where the mercury was topping 27! We piled into the vast Dodge Ram pick up and headed off.

Now, I knew we would be hunting from tree stands over bait, but I was still a little hazy over what this would actually mean and I would like to say at this point, I really didn’t know whether I actually wanted to kill a bear. We arrived at the first bait, deep the woods. Two of us waited in the truck while our guide took the first victim off to his stand. The tension was building in the truck I can tell you.

A few miles further on and it was my turn. L took me off the track and to an area which looked like the aftermath of an explosion in Tesco’s bakery. The were bits of bread and cake everywhere and a smell of bacon grease hung suggestively in the air. At this point, I felt qualified to answer the age old question ‘do bears shit in the woods?’ Oh yes, they do, and then some!

L showed me to the tree stand. Hmmm. It was a 15’ vertical ladder made from scrap wood with an 18 x 24 square of ply at the top. An inverted bucket was perched precariously on top of this. The whole thing was tied back to a wobbly spruce tree with a bit of frayed cord. Another bit of hairy rope was dangled from slightly higher up the tree – evidently the safety strap! Another piece of cord dangled by the side of the ladder. I tied the rifle on as instructed and ascended to my eyrie. Oh Jesus, the slightest movement set the whole affair swaying terrifyingly. Why is it for someone who has never been good with heights I always seem to end up having to climb into the most frightening places.

I got onto the ply but really couldn’t steel myself to go that last little bit and get my backside on the bucket so I settled with my legs dangling over the front. After a few minutes I began to recall my instructions. I must be utterly still, utterly quiet. I would not hear bear coming, they would just appear. Then, unbidden, my hosts tale of a bear climbing the ladder onto the platform and him killing it with the back of a hatchet came to mind. I tucked up my legs.

After a quarter of an hour the wood began to settle down. The blue jays were the first to return, they squabbled and squawked over the bread. They were joined by the squirrels, grey jay and snowshoe hares (rabbits as they call them in Nova Scotia and very highly prized they are, apparently). Spruce grouse hung around the outside of the scene. What a fuss the squirrels made over that bread, they were hilarious to watch and time passed quickly. A grey jay perched briefly on the end of my barrel caused me to jump out of my skin.

All this time I still didn’t know whether I wanted to shoot a bear.

‘You won’t hear him, in thirty years of bear hunting, I’ve never once heard one coming in to the bait’ This quote was always in my mind as I sat there. Another tens minutes passed, I was feeling vaguely nauseas from the swaying of the tree when I suddenly became aware of a presence. I didn’t hear anything, I don’t recall seeing anything but I looked down to my left and there looking up at me was bear. From just fifteen feet away. Check sphincter.

We continued to look at each other for some seconds. It seemed an awful long time. Bear slowly turned to make his escape. I watched him put each foot down so softly, he placed the outside of his foot first and then lowered the sole so carefully and within a few moments had made his silent exit. I hadn’t managed to move.

I sat still and silent for some time. I could tell from the other wildlife he was still around and ten minutes later he slowly made his way towards the bait, this time down a perfect alley for the shot. Did I want to shoot this creature, what right had I. This was no cull deer, this was a black bear in his prime. Another piece of advice came to mind…look at his ears. If they look small, he’s a big bear, if they look big, he’s a small bear. Did they look big or small? I just couldn’t decide. He ambled closer. Slowly, so slowly I put up the little Winchester and settled the front pip comfortably in the notch and made a three point line to his heart.

As I began to take up the slack there was a rumbling whine from the track 100 yards away and bear turned tail and vanished. As the noise of the passing quad vanished I sat stunned, the decision had been taken from me.

I sat as instructed until after dark when L turned up in the Dodge. I made my way back to the track to find a grinning A…his bear was in the bag.

A meal of bear steak and mash was some compensation. Eating bear is almost as incredible experience and hunting them.

I sat up that tree for another 5 nights and saw not a hair of that bear. So, he’s still out there and I know one thing, bears are safe from me. I can find no reason to pull the trigger.

Just some scribbling from about six years ago now, how time passes.

Since leaving home and entering the world of work and marriage, my step son and his friend (who we’ll call L & R) have slowly but surely become urbanised, I don’t mean that they have become clueless townies, just that their lives are lived in the terrifying conurbations of Oxford and London respectively. Having watched both of them grow up in the countryside, it was sad to see the change when they brought their respective wives and babies up to visit over the New Year.

While chatting they both expressed a desire to experience highland stalking. A few phone calls later and I had cooked up a day out for them with a local professional stalker. I thought it would be better for them to go out with someone else, they would probably gain far more than if they just followed me around my patch. One of my better ideas as it turned out.

Dawned the great day and they were kitted out in a motley assortment of my oversized gear and their own Royal Marine Reserves kit, we took a couple of Tikkas belonging to the stalker plus my Mannlicher. Left over Christmas cake was stuffed into pockets and we were off.

Very subtly D, (the stalker) wound us up a steep drag, contriving pauses to look at things…but actually allowing us to regain our breaths, it was beautifully done. At the top, D toddled off for a spy and left us to drink in the view. Even though I’ve lived in the Highlands for around 4 years now, it still takes my breath away. D came back shaking his head, nothing to be seen, very unusual…it was clear that this man knew his ground like I know my comfy chair.

 

A bit of a wander and we spied a few beasts. We got to within 300m of them but D would not allow the guys to shoot. Much too far for newcomers. A big old hind was slightly higher than the main group and had us pinned down. As we watched, the low group started to graze towards us. I could feel the tension from my young charges, see the rigidity and slight shiver in their bodies…I knew they had become totally absorbed.

D decided that we should retreat and make our way to a position where the old girl couldn’t spot us, then wait for the group to graze into us. This we did and a long damp, cold wait followed. I was glad they weren’t having it too easy! After an eternity, backs started appearing over the closest ridge and the beasts wandered in at about 90m, perfect. A whispered command, ‘shoot’. A shot from L. A beast fell. Got up, a shot from R. The hind fell again, not a twitch.

The look on those faces will forever be imprinted in my memory. Ear to ear grins doesn’t even begin to cover it. We reached the beast and D gave them a full run down on it’s age and condition, the gralloch and too much else to remember. Such a knowledgeable guy and a total Gentleman. If he’s reading this he will know who he is and should know that he made those two youngsters incredibly happy and also the perhaps more importantly, has made two complete converts to the cause.

Oh, perhaps I should mention one more thing. My step son L is a vegetarian. To see him walking off the hill bloodied and grinning was indeed a proud moment for me.

Oddness...

It’s rather odd. I’ve had a whole week of no weird stuff happening to me. Usually my life is a morass of strange connections and unusual happenings. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t go out to look for this stuff, it just sort of happens. I can’t actually remember when it started, unless you count the general oddness of the old farmhouse in which I spent a deal of my childhood, but more of that in a forthcoming book.

The oddness of my adult life just seems to have always been there. From black dogs to whistling wanderers there’s always something strange going on. Take for instance the whistling wanderer. I used to have a business involved in aviation wildlife management. My base was airside on a smallish international airport, in an old second world war ammunition store, complete with blast walls and huge steel doors. My days were long and did not end until the last daylight flight had arrived.  I would then hurry back, lock the equipment away and in the sudden quiet would often hear a noise. A slow, almost bored whistling. No tune, just notes, flowing, rising and falling. Not unpleasant. But as I was always completely and utterly alone, distinctly strange. To my mind it was the sound of a bored guard strolling round the buildings. But who knows.

An altogether more sinister experience was waking up in a cold sweat of dread at the same time of night – every single time I stayed in a particular house. Others experienced bed covers being pulled down and nameless fears. It was later learned that a stable lad hanged himself in that room many years before.

Some experiences are benign but weird. Take for instance the time I was driving home past a very remote cottage at around three in the morning. As I passed the gate I happened to look towards the house, there in the gateway, not five feet from me was a man standing bolt upright reading a newspaper – in the dark. I didn’t look in the mirror after I had passed, I knew the nocturnal reader would not be there.

Another local house seems beset with oddness, the (occasional) appalling smell at the bottom of the stairs (where the owner was found dead), the ringing doorbell – which has no cable to it and don’t even ask me about the security cameras!

More recently I’ve heard the sounds of cattle being herded in a deserted clearance village, observed strange dividing lights in the night sky and had a period of ‘corner of the eye’ people where they shouldn’t have been. Really, this is just the tip of the iceberg, my life seems full of this strange stuff (and I’m very much not alone round here) and it was having a period without any oddness that really caused me to think about it.

So, by now, you’ll probably think I’m a tad weird, prone to hysterics, maybe a bit fey? Well, perhaps, but I’m also a hairy arsed wood cutter and stalker so make of that what you will.

There’s more to heaven and earth and all that…